Dear Marie: An Open Letter to Marie Kondo

Dear Marie,

You don’t know me. We’re from two different continents, we don’t speak the same language, and although I know you probably will never read this I felt compelled to write it. Why? Because, Dear Marie. Unbeknownst to you, you’ve changed my life and my underwear drawer forever.

The extent of the influence your book on my house and family was not fully realized until my four-year old handed me two of his former best friends  (stuffed dogs, ‘Sue’ and ‘Sah’) telling me he was ready to “pass them along” because they no longer brought him joy. My emotional reaction to this announcement caught me off-guard. “Really?” I choked out while blocking as much of my surprise as I could. Marie, you warned me about this. You warned me that it is especially hard on parents to see what their children are getting rid of. With your wisdom in mind, I took a deep breath and responded, “Ok, if you’re ready[even though I so wasn’t]. But you need to know that these are pretty worn out, so that means they will need to go into the garbage can…”

“Yeah. I’m ok with that”

With my heart breaking a little, I opened the garbage can, took a deep breath and dropped in the toys. Then to seal the deal, poured a little expired spaghetti sauce on top to stop me from changing my mind. Oh Marie, you would have been so proud.

Yes Marie. Even my four-year-old has been catching the tidying excitement. After the dumping-of-the-best-friends event he placed another stuffy on a shelf announcing this would be it’s home for now as he had yet to decide if it still gave him joy. Prided swelled in my heart causing my eyes to mist.

Although I’ve only officially finished steps one and two of the KonMari Method (sorting through clothing and books), while dabbling in other areas (I know Marie, I know. I’m supposed to do it in order. Don’t give up on me.), this house is feeling better already. I stopped counting boxes of discarded items after 25 exited our home. I’m pretty sure we have single-handedly stocked a local thrift shop for a month and clothed a multi-child family for the next year. You’re right Marie. It does feel good. Also, recycling day has become my favourite day of the week. And for the first time in a month I was able to fit all my recycling in our city-approved designated recycling bin. I’m smiling a little to myself as I write this.

I must confess though Marie, that this process is not all butterflies and rainbows. There was a day I was particularly ruthless with old papers, cards, and journals with your words, “Celebrate who you are now”, at the forefront of my mind. That night as I lay down to sleep, my heart started beating faster, breaths were becoming shallow and difficult and I felt my chest squeezing. I was fending off a full-blown panic attack. “Did I really just get rid of all of those birthday cards? What have I done?” Marie, I can’t say you didn’t warn me. You did say that when you get rid of so much stuff all at once, it is not unusual to experience an outbreak of pimples, or to have a couple days of diarrhea. You attributed this phenomenon to toxins leaving your home through the form of your unwanted stuff. I must admit – and I don’t say this to hurt your feelings but rather because honesty is important - I think that is a load of bunk. However, I think we can agree that beholding the pile after a thorough purge can be stressful. For me, this stress didn’t take the form of pimples or the runs but rather a panic attack. But I did it Marie. I stayed strong, I talked myself through it, went to sleep and the next morning I put it out with the recycling, and yes, even experienced joy as the garbage man came to take it away. This process is making me stronger. Thank you, Dear Marie.

But while we’re being honest here Marie, I have to admit, there is one part of your KonMari Method I simply cannot get on board with…Attributing human emotion to inanimate objects and thanking them for serving me feels a little weird. I respect your decision to hold to this practice but I just can’t participate. I’m not even sorry. However the way I’ve made peace with it is this: I’ve decided that at the core of this piece of the process is the recognition of the importance of gratitude. That I can grasp. Here’s where we’re different, Marie: I believe that every good and perfect gift comes from Father God, so I’m going to thank Him instead. I feel good about this slight departing from your method. I understand you may not be completely ok with this and think I’m missing an essential part of the process. I get it. I can respect that. But honestly, I think this bit of your thinking is kind of weird. I fully recognize you probably think the same of mine. Can we just acknowledge each other’s weirdness and be friends anyway? I’m game if you are. 

But Marie, having said that, I feel it is important to give props where props is due. So Marie, instead of thanking your book for helping me, I’m going to the source.

You Marie. You are that source.

Here’s to you, Marie.

Because of you, the kitchen countertop is more visible most days than it has been in my 11 years of marriage. That’s because of you. Thank you.

Thanks to you Marie, my bathtub/shower has never looked better or has been easier to clean – I can’t exit the bathroom without removing everything from the bathtub, drying them off and placing them in their designated homes. Thank you.

My bookshelves are filled with only our favourites. We play more board games as a family because the home we have chosen for them is so much more accessible than it was previously. I rid myself of a few of my high school yearbooks that represented my most notable years of awkwardness. What a relief! My living room is more of a place of connection and fun than it has ever been. This is all because of you. Thank you.

Also noteworthy is the discovery that I have more storage space/bins than I need! I spend less time looking for things because everything has a home. Heck, I even found my many piles of seashells and carefully selected my favourites from the pile to arrange inside a glass jar for my living room shelf. Seeing it sparks joy. For all of this, thank you.

I’m not done, I have most of my ‘Komono’ (miscellaneous items) to attend to, but hey – that is much less of an overwhelming thought than it was a month ago. I’ve been taking comfort in your clarification that tidying all at once, thoroughly and completely, could be a 6 month process. I’ve decided I’m ok with that. As I move steadily along in this process and become more confident in my decision-making -skills, I’m already breathing easier in my home.

Perhaps the biggest ‘Thank You’ I must say is for helping me rid myself of the guilt I experience whenever I consider passing along an item gifted to me. Your wise words reminded me these things were an “expression of love and consideration…”, that I didn’t need to keep it ‘just because’ and to simply  be thankful for the “joy it gave you when you first received it”. 

That paragraph represented such a shift in my thinking it’s worthy of a full cut and paste…

But surely the person who gave it to you doesn’t want you to use it out of a sense of obligation, or to put it away without using it, only to feel guilty every time you see it. When you discard or donate it, you do so for the sake of the giver, too.  (Kondo, “The Life Changing Magic of Tidying Up”, pg 108)

So… thanks. Thank you Marie for helping me to make my home a tidier and happier place. I’m not sure if my remarks about not being on board with speaking to inanimate objects or where I my gratitude is directed, or the fact that I’ve worked this whole thing a little out of order will offend you to the point of me being disqualified from being an official KonMari Method graduate. I hope not, but, no matter. Regardless of where these differing opinions leave our friendship and my graduate status, Thank you, Dear Marie. My house is a heck of a lot closer to being filled only with things that I love. And that my friend, sparks the most joy of all.   

The Local Library: Your Community's Unsung Gem

Welcome to Canada!

I’d like to introduce you to an often-unsung magical gem of a place found in most Canadian communities: the local library.   

Four years ago, my little family packed up our things and moved from the growing city of Guelph Ontario to Arnprior, a small Eastern-Ontario community in the Ottawa Valley. As a pregnant and full-time parent of an inquisitive, energetic and adventurous toddler with limited access to transportation, I was delighted to discover our local library was less than a kilometer’s distance from our home. ‘Adventures’ with Sophie often involved a walk from our home (perhaps more of a waddle for me and my growing belly), through our friendly neighbourhood, across the bridge that spans the dam on the Madawaska River to the local library right on the edge of the down-town core. At age two, Sophie quickly figured out how to operate the kids’ touch-screen computers, the wonderful feeling of returning home with a big pile of books to share and the joy of independence that comes with having your very own library card. Also, I rediscovered my own love of children’s literature.  

The library soon became our favourite hang-out and it wasn’t long before two-year-old Sophie was on a first-name basis with a number of the librarians.   

When Asher was born, a month early and in a hurry, health complications that ensued made feeding him and getting enough sleep to function, a full-time job. As such, I was house-bound for a number of months. Every week or so sunshine would arrive in the form of a fresh batch of library books. Because my arms were tied up with a sick babe, breast pumps and bottles, I was unable to give much attention to Sophie other than to read her stories as she flipped the pages beside me. We devoured those books. We would work through stacks upon stacks, often reading together for up to two hours a day.

During those long days we read and read, getting lost in the stories together. We got to know Stella and Sam (Marie-Louise Gay), a big sister with a wonderful imagination and a grand sense of adventure with a little brother who always wants to know, Why? We made up songs to go with the stories about Jillian Jigs (Phoebe Gilman) as she sewed “hundreds and millions and zillions of pigs!” with her friends Rachel and Peter. We read about the Jolly Rogers (Jonny Duddle), a pirate family trying to fit in with the land-lubbers and a small girl named Matilda who befriended them when no one else would. We have read so many books about dinosaurs that now, ‘Euoplocephalous’ rolls off my tongue with ease. We giggled together at the silliness of Piggie and Gerald, best friends who never let the weather nor common sense get in the way of their fun. We sang along with Skippyjon Jones (Judy Schachner), the Siamese cat who desperately wants to be a Spanish-speaking Chihuahua as he bounced and bounced on his big boy bed.

When Asher was a few weeks old, we told Sophie we were going to go on a family adventure and asked where she would like to bring her little brother. “Can we bring him to my favourite place?” she asked us excitedly.

We tucked the sleeping boy into his car seat and drove to the library. Sophie was jumping up and down with excitement as Kyle lifted Asher out of the car. “Asher!!” She stage-whispered as only a 2-year old can, “THIS is the LIBRARY! This is my FAVOURITE place!” She proudly pressed the buttons to swing the doors open and led the way into the children’s section to introduce her infant brother to all the magic she had discovered there.

Three years later, we still make weekly visits to the library, something we all look forward to. Asher now takes great delight in signing out his own books with his library card, feels so proud when he finds his favourite books all on his own to bring home. Both of our kids have finished the “100 Books to Read Before Kindergarten” list. Sophie helps Asher find his favourite books about cats, and outer-space, and ‘Cars Galore’ (“I WUV Galore books!”), and Sophie participated in the library’s ‘Summer Reading Program’ last summer, signing out at least five books on her own card from the library 13 times over the course of the summer, earning her 12 pins for her red base-ball cap and an invitation to a big dance party at the end of the summer, an exclusive packed-out event filled with the towns’ most enthusiastic junior readers.  

I am so thankful for exceptional staff at the library who have taken the time to get to know the kids and community members who come in, for the fun after-school and summer programs they organize and for the overall friendly and welcoming atmosphere they create. My kids love reading, and that is in no small part, a result of the wonderful staff and facility available to us at no cost, simply because we are members of the community.

Do you want to find out what is happening in your town? Do you need a quiet place to sit? Do you need something new to read? Do you need some inspiration, conversation or an opportunity to get to know people in your town? Check out your local library – adventures await!

Welcome Home!

It's So Much Better Your Way

Last month in response to Bell’s, “Let’s Talk” ads, I reposted a blog entry I wrote a few years ago outlining my struggle with anxiety and depression. Yep, it’s true. Stephanie Donnelly your Pastor’s
wife deals with a mental illness. For the past four years I have been taking medication daily to stave
off the symptoms. When I first started taking it I felt like I had just been thrown a rope. I still had to climb out from the pit but suddenly it felt doable – I didn’t have to do it on my own strength.

But Stephanie…

          1) If you believe in a God who heals, you don’t need medication. You just need to pray more.

          2) Maybe if He hasn’t taken it away yet, it’s because there is some secret sin in your life that                    He wants you to repent of.

          3) Really If you were just to do a better job of taking care of yourself, and getting enough                        sleep, you wouldn’t be struggling so much.

          4) You really just need to relax. Maybe take some yoga classes.

          5) Don’t accept any labels from a doctor who isn’t a believer. That’s a form of 

              condemnation. You need to be speaking life over yourself.

          6) Just drown out the negative thoughts with singing!

          7) You just need a vacation.

A number of these comments were from a fellow Jesus-follower, a professional counsellor and a nurse; the rest are my own.

I have a friend who was diagnosed with a mental illness shortly after I met her. “Stephanie, if I had diabetes, I wouldn’t think twice about taking insulin.” And in the words of another friend, “Your brain is a part of your body. If your body is unwell, what do you do? You treat it.”

When I recognized the subtle onset of suicidal thoughts, I was reminded of my friends’ words. Finally, I scheduled and attended an appointment with a psychiatrist with whom I had cancelled twice.

After beginning the smallest dosage of my anti-anxiety medication, the suicidal thoughts left. After the first increase, I started to feel a bit lighter. After the second increase I felt like myself again - for the first time in four years. Praise Jesus.

Over the last four years I’ve often prayed that God would heal me from my struggle. I mean, who wants to be on anti-depressants for the rest of their lives? Really. It took me a while to realize that He HAS been healing me. He was choosing to answer my prayer through medication. Yes, He is totally able to say the word and remove this struggle from me. However, in His wisdom He has chosen to answer my prayer differently than I would like. He often has gently reminded me that His grace is sufficient for me. I have not always handled those reminders well. I have a lot of growing to do. I’m very thankful for His patience with me.

A couple summers ago I decided I was going to wean myself off. I did everything right. I spoke to my doctor, got her advice on how to safely begin. I reduced my dosage by the smallest amount possible and BAM – enter the worst two weeks of my life since beginning the medication. I stuck it out for nearly 14 days and then much to the relief of my husband, I decided I, as well as my marriage and my kids, needed me to stay on the meds.

I had plans to try again when Asher started school, but then with our upcoming move I decided not to throw another big change into the mix. I was going to try again in May this spring, when I could get outside more.

Ha. So. Fun story. Last month Kyle and I went with my family on an adventure to Cuba. Well, somewhere between here and our holiday destination, my blister pack with my week's worth of medication went missing from my checked baggage. I discovered this in the dark of my hotel room in Veradero after the kids were asleep. After going through every bag twice, I announced. “Ok. I don’t have my anxiety medication. I’m probably going to have some withdrawal symptoms. But, this week I’m going to get lots of rest, be outside every day, we’ll be with family, and I’ll be able to choose what I’m going to eat carefully from the buffet. It’s going to be fine. Kyle, it’s going to be fine. Please don’t be worried.”

“Ok,” he said, “I’m not going to worry.” His face was telling me a different story.

That night as I lay in bed trying to convince myself it was going to be ok, the lyrics to a song (Defender) that had been playing and replaying in my brain for the last few weeks started to drown out my worry…

Eventually sleep found me. We had a wonderful holiday. We really enjoyed being with our family and having all the little cousins together. It was great. I was definitely slightly dizzy the entire time, feeling a little ‘tipped’. I felt more tired than I thought was normal and at night when I would lie down to sleep, I would hear noises that weren’t actually there – as confirmed by Kyle, “No Stephanie. No one is clapping. Just go to sleep.”

But here’s the thing. I didn’t realize until after we came back, when Kyle asked if I would share with our church family about being healed from depression, that it had actually happened… I think I even responded with, “Well, I’d be happy to share anything – I just want to make sure that what I’m saying is true.”

But friends, here’s what’s true. The last time I went from 75 mg of my medication down to 50 mg, I felt like I was thrown into the pit again. Life became heavy. I was miserable and definitely spent time by myself in our car in an empty parking lot feeling numb and empty. That was after only ONE week of having my meds reduced by a third. It has now been five weeks being medication-free. I’m not going to lie, I’m still a little dizzy now and then but on the whole, I really feel ok. Joyful even. I did raise my voice a bit too much when I caught Asher spitting on his floor and trying to hide it by wiping it up with his bare foot, and I did make too big of a deal about Sophie not being willing to try some sort of new granola bar. But you know what? I’m able to reign myself in. I wasn’t able to do that before. I feel less tired than I have been in years really and although I do have some OCD tendencies I’m noticing a bit more frequently, I’m able to redirect my thoughts so much better than I ever was even before the real struggle began when I became a Mama.

So...seven years later, I'm five-weeks medication free and feeling surprisingly normal. Can it be I've been on the receiving end of a subtle and quiet miracle? Dare I say it?... Guys... My depression is gone!!

The medication I’ve been on have been attacking two issues simultaneously, the first (anxiety) was something I have lived with since before I could talk and as such, I’ve devised various coping devices over the years to help me to function. My anxiety was brought to the forefront when the black cloud of depression descended; according to the psychiatrist, this is quite common. I’m going to carefully assess my anxiety levels in the next while, inviting the honest observations of my husband while my body acclimatizes to no medication and use that to decide whether or not beginning the medication again would be helpful. And yes, I promise I’ll speak to my family doctor as well. But for now, I’m going to celebrate this victory. Problem one of two has disappeared! No more depression! Praise Jesus.

Please, please don’t let the take away from this be, “Just stop taking your meds! You’re going to be fine!”

Let it be this. What you are going through in this season of your journey matters. Your pain and struggle and mess doesn’t have to be a permanent fixture in your life. Your struggle can be used for something good and constructive and helpful and beautiful. Because He allowed me to walk though this, and helped me to be brave and share with others, I’ve been able to be a voice of encouragement for others who struggle with similar things. I have two friends, one who was recently suicidal and another who struggled with anxiety silently for years who decided to be brave as well and open up to their doctors about their need for help. I have another friend who was feeling torn about putting her own child on anti-anxiety meds. Because I shared my story, she shared hers with me and I was able add my perspective to her thoughts. I’ve been given the gift of being able to walk with another friend post-suicide attempt. God has used me in my mess as a part of his plan for the healing and restoration of others. He really does make beautiful things out of the dust.

He didn’t answer my prayer for healing on my timeline or in the way I wanted Him to. I’ve experienced a lot of tears and frustration because of this. But…because he held off on healing me in the way I wanted to receive it, and do it His way instead, He has been able to use me to walk with others and make them feel not crazy. Over the last four years, of all the advice, and medication, and talks and support I’ve received, the most valuable has been friends willing to be vulnerable with me and share their stories of personal mental struggle. Their stories have given me hope, direction for healing and bravery in the face of all the junk. And I can honestly stand here and say, if all of this experience has made it possible for me to be that person for one or two others, you know what? I am so thankful for that. It makes all this mess worthwhile.

We all have our own messes. If He can make something beautiful out of mine, He can do the same for you. Of course He will. He had a plan; I just couldn’t see it. He has been patient and gracious with me when I’ve stumbled. Even when I couldn’t see it this whole time He has been fighting for me and I’ll I had to do was stay still.

Bar Mitzvahs and Antidepressants in La La Land

The more I’ve practiced being courageous in sharing my story, the easier it gets. Striking up conversations with strangers in social situations (or on buses/airplanes) and letting it happen organically has been a great way to practice. If it goes badly, ah well, I don’t have to talk to her again. If it goes well, great! I’ve made a new friend. Today I was reminded of one such conversation with Sarah, a woman I met on my way home from California a few years ago. I’m so glad I decided to be brave that day. Maybe some day I’ll be lucky enough to see her again…

“Alright, alright, alright! Keep moving, you five! Shuffle along here.”

I turned my head and peeked over the seat in front of me in curiosity, trying to see which brash air stewardess was conducting traffic this way. To my total delight this was no air stewardess but a hustley bustley mama of five who looked around my age. Behind her, five little heads of varying heights donning yarmulkes or braids and uber-modest dresses that matched their mama’s bobbed obediently behind her. A tall muscular man with dark features with full lips also wearing a yarmulke was bringing up the rear. I had just come from a week-long adventure in L.A. with Kyle as he had been testing at the Gracie Jiu Jitsu headquarters in Torrance to become an instructor. I had been around some seriously tough individuals the last few days and this guy seemed like he would have fit right in. I don’t think he was mute, but I quickly noted that in this family dynamic, it was the wife that did most of the talking.

“You! Sit beside your father! You! You’re a chucker! Sit here by the aisle. The rest of you! These seats are yours. Sort yourselves out! Ay yay yay… I need some cwaffie. Is anyone serving cwaffie? Wait! I have some here.” … She was from New York!!  I put down my book and prepared myself to do some eyes-closed eavesdropping for the entirety of the flight. This was going to be awesome.

She finished directing her clan and paused beside my row. “Oh… YES!” I thought to myself with building excitement in my heart as it became clear who was going to occupy the empty seat beside me, “This day just keeps getting better!”

“Whew!” She plunked herself down in the chair beside me. “Ay yay yay. Yes! You! I told you to sit there! Yes! You have to! Play nicely with your brother!” She closed her eyes and exhaled deeply, turning her face to the ceiling, resting only moments before turning around in her seat to face her kids again. “Ok, you know what we need here? We need to sing a song! Let’s go!” She began stomping both feet simultaneously, clapping loudly and singing a rousing version of some celebratory song in Hebrew, increasing her volume in an attempt to distract them from their squabbles… or maybe to encourage her crew to join in? “Nope.” I decided, “This is definitely to make up for their lack of enthusiasm. This woman is my hero.” Ignoring the stares of the other passengers, she carried on until all her kids joined in; even the little one with the soother was clapping on her Father’s lap. The father remained silent and expressionless. The song ended with raised hands and a cheer. The kids went back to their books and gaming devices, and the Mama swinging her legs out of the aisle and settling into her seat suddenly seemed to notice me.

“Hi, I’m Stephanie.” I offered, “I have a couple kids too but they are with my parents at the moment. This seems like quite the family adventure for you!”

She introduced herself. Her name was Sarah. She and her husband Malachi were on their way to Israel with their five children to celebrate the Bar Mitzvah of their oldest son. The original plan had been for Sarah and Malachi to just bring their son for a short three-day visit to Israel but when Sarah’s sister had caught wind of this, she was disgusted with the lack of ceremony surrounding such an important event and had purchased airline tickets for the while family to spend a week in Israel together. This was the first time in 13 years this family had been able to travel without a stroller. They were flying from California to Toronto and had a connecting flight that would bring them to Israel. “It’s not a big deal” she assured me, “it’s going to be fine.” My respect for this Powerhouse was growing.

She noted my not-from-here accent and asked me what brought me to California. I told her about Kyle’s Jiu Jitsu training and how much we enjoyed the sunshine and the novelty of the palm trees on front lawns still decorated with Christmas ornaments. I shared with her that orange trees hanging heavily with fruit seemed as common as maple trees for us, and how one of my favourite things this week had been to pick fresh limes from the tree in the back-yard of our AirBNB every morning to slice into my glass of water. She chuckled at my amazement and asked if I had had the chance to explore LA a bit.

“Not really” I admitted, “Kyle’s schedule was more full than we were anticipating, BUT I did get to spend a number of hours exploring Long Beach on my own!” She told me she worked in Long Beach and asked what surprised me most about the city. I told her about people I saw at the harbour front bundled in winter hats and jackets, and wearing shorts, (it was 18 degrees Celsius and sunny), people riding Segways instead of walking on the sidewalks, and the shop owner I met on the harbour who bitterly complained about the “Terrible weather we’re having”. Sarah shook her head and scoffed, “Yes. We’re from New York originally. This really is LA LA land…” We both had a little laugh about that (and I understood the title of the recently released movie for the first time), before I added,

 “I did get a little turned around at one point and was surprised at the number of homeless people there seem to be.”

“…Yes. That is definitely a problem here.”

Sarah, it turns out, works within the Social Service system. She regularly interacts with individuals who live on the streets or in sub-optimal conditions. She told me often something that she finds incredibly frustrating is that if people would just take the medication they were prescribed, they would not be struggling so much.

I took the opportunity to share with this new friend, the short version of my journey with depression and anxiety and how much the medication I’ve been taking has helped me to function relatively symptom-free, and how thankful I am that it is available to me and although I believe in a God who loves me and hears me and is able to heal me, I’ve had to get to a point where I accept that for now, He’s choosing to heal me through the medication. Maybe someday He’ll see fit to remove my need for it, but for now, I don’t have to deal with the symptoms and that needs to be enough for me.

She nodded thoughtfully and then began to share a little about her faith and her prayer life and how it played a role in her work.

In a weird way, moments like this are the best gift that living with depression and anxiety have given me. Practicing being brave in vulnerability with others has opened up doors to conversations (sometimes with complete strangers) about deeper things of the heart that may not have happened otherwise.  I walk away from these conversations feeling humbled by how I’ve been trusted with a glimpse of someone else’s heart or scars, and with a feeling of “See? That wasn’t so scary. You’re not the only one who deals with this stuff.”

We chatted for a while about prayer, our families and Sarah’s work. Eventually we got onto a story about a morning she was pulling into a parking lot of an apartment complex when she noticed a man, face down on the side of the road. She stopped the car and dialed 911. She explained the situation and was asked, “Well, is he breathing?” “Are you asking me to go check? No way am I going to do that!” Eventually an ambulance came, checked the guy out and it turned out he was just drunk and hadn’t taken his medication for a while. He was moved somewhere safe and Sarah got on with her day. “You know, when these people aren’t on their meds, they are just Crazy!" She paused, glancing at me nervously, "...No offense.”

Oh man. This was too much. I erupted in giggles, startling my new friend, whose surprise quickly dissolved into laughter of her own.

This woman was bringing their five children on a multi-flight trip to Israel to celebrate a Bar Mitzvah. She had announced to the entire plane that one of her kids was prone to barfing. Her huge but possibly mute husband seemed completely disengaged, so when the kids are all squirmy and squabbling, instead of asking her husband to help, her solution was to sing a song as loud as possible all the while clapping and stomping hoping the kids will join in. She had asked no one in particular in a loud voice a number of times about whether or not there was “Cwaffie” available, all the while holding one. And finally because I tell her that I’ve been on some medication for anxiety and depression for the last while, I’m the one who is crazy.

What a wonderful lady! Maybe some day I’ll be lucky enough to run into her again. No offense taken Sarah; none at all.